I think I'm allergic to life.

The good news: the crazy itching that I first went to the doctor's for two weeks or so ago isn't (according to the nurse practitioner I "saw") scabies or any other crazy skin disease like I was worried it might be.

The bad news: the Prednisone, Zyrtec (and originally Claritin), Zantac and hydrocortisone cream that I've been taking in various combinations and doses since then don't seem to be helping-- or at least not consistently.

The nurse practitioner wants me to go see an allergist, which I don't have the insurance or money for right now, so I've been trying to do some research online to find a way to narrow down whether or not there's something I'm eating that's causing me to have this allergic reaction but the lists I've seen online of common food allergies to eliminate from your diet to try to narrow down an allergy are just so daunting. How in the world do I cut out everything with wheat or gluten or other assorted things in it if I don't know what has that in it? Do I carry a list of things I'm supposed to be avoiding and just obsessively read food labels for a few weeks to see if it helps?

This whole situation is just so frustrating right now. Sometimes it's better, sometimes it's worse. Sometimes I can go all day without it bothering me and sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and can't fall back asleep because I itch too much.

I guess I need to just pick a plan of attack and see what happens because as it stands right now Plan A didn't work and Plan B don't seem to be working so I need a new plan of attack because it feels better than just doing nothing... or continuing to do something that I know isn't working.

Here's hoping...

I haz blog?

This is how my attempt at keeping a blog always goes:
1. Start blog.
2. Post frequently for a couple weeks.
3. Forget about it/lose interest.
4. Find it again and try to revive it.
5. Start again at #2.

But since this is mostly for me, I guess that's alright! I love going back to the couple of places I have blog entries from years ago and seeing what was going on in my life at the time, how I viewed life.

Anyways, I really just felt the need to make another list of the things I'm grateful for right now. The last couple weeks have been crazy and stressful and I feel like this rough patch might last the next couple of months until tax season is over so I want to focus on the good stuff and not let the not-so-good weight me down and I know that's easier to let happen when I get stressed. So without further ado, here goes...

I'm thankful for:
*Ericka, Nanda, Jenny and other assorted amazing friends.
*Delilah's need to spend every second I'm home lately cuddling in my lap.
*Family members that remind me that I have a few of them that aren't completely dysfunctional.
*Monday night Big Bang Theory traditions.
*My Xbox and good friends to play fun games on it with.
*Mass doses of caffeine to keep me going throughout the day.
*A job that I love to balance out the one that I maybe don't like so much.
*The ability to pay (most of) my bills (sometimes even on time!).
*The amazing salad E inspired me to make that I've eaten more in the last week than I care to admit.

I'm also making a couple not-New-Year's resolutions:
*To refocus on the good things I have and not dwell on the not-as-good.
*To think about what I want out of relationships before I get into them and not compromise.
*To be happy with my alone time and not feel the need to fill every minute of every day with "stuff."

Alright, back to work I go...